Putting up the volume,
My surroundings are mute.
I'm lost in the darkest tunes,
Isn't it cute?
The wind hits my face,
It's so cold.
I know I'm out of place,
I've let go of what I use to hold.
I never wanted to say goodbye,
But it was becoming too much for me.
I use to just sit down and cry,
Now I talk in my own insanity.
I'm steering myself out of control,
Playing with those I shouldn't dare to.
I'm slowly falling into my own dark hole,
My own grave... and there's nothing anyone can do.
I've said goodbye to those I just couldn't bare,
Ripped out every natural feeling in me.
Hell, I still see, I still care,
And
You don't,
Seem to understand
Just who,
I really am
So let,
Me show you now,
Just because I can
I am not as weak,
As you'd hoped to think
I am stronger than you are,
Because I believe
So take this moment,
Look through my eyes and see...
I am the fear you hide,
I am the pain inside,
I am the enemy
I am what makes you break,
I am more than you can take,
Cause I am the enemy
I am what you want to be,
But no matter how hard you try,
You will never be me
Get up,
Off your knees,
Cause I hate,
To see you plead
You are,
So false and fake,
But you wonder why no-one grieves
You're always wanting more,
Than you really need
You look my way and say
I feel your hands in my hair.
I feel your breath on my neck.
I feel your body pressed so close to mine.
I feel your lips on my throat.
I feel your hands move to my back and your lips work their way up to mine.
I feel you and I love it.
I hear you say you love me.
I hear you whisper my name.
I hear you tell me I'm the only one for you.
I hear your breath in my ear.
I hear your soft snores as I fall asleep.
I hear you and I love it.
I see you as I run into your arms.
I see your face break through my world of darkness.
I see you fight away my fears.
I see you wipe away my tears.
I see you're in love with me.
I see you and I love
Unsent Letters and Apologies by betwixtthepages, literature
Literature
Unsent Letters and Apologies
Dear Heart:
Let it go.
The memories you're clinging to
aren't worth the guilt you feel.
Each pang scars,
and I'm tired of crystal tears.
I'm tired of salt-chapped lips
and permanent frown-lines.
Find someone else to lament;
the past is gone.
Dear Heart:
I know you're hurting.
Stop being stubborn
and let it fade;
you don't share his pulse anymore.
It never belonged to you anyway.
Forget him;
there's better waiting to be found.
Heart:
You're doing it again.
The bad-boy attitude's gonna kill you,
the grip of their needs around your neck
bound to drown you in sorrow they don't mean.
It's always the same:
an issue sprouted
The Things I'll Never Say by betwixtthepages, literature
Literature
The Things I'll Never Say
a.
you stole pages from my life,
words I'd have preferred
over the glitter you left behind.
you never did make sense;
i thought maybe,
if i examined your margins closely enough,
i'd understand.
maybe i'd figure out a way
to keep you close
when nobody else ever could.
i need my ending back.
i know,
now,
that it was never destined for your grease stains.
mail it via "Moving On."
b.
you still have chunks of me beneath your nails,
portions of my heartstrings
where you clung too tightly.
you were much too grand
for a first heartache;
your addiction for fast cars
and too much nicotine
should have warned me from the get-go
t
It's time to forget...
Forget about the memories
Forget about the laughs
Forget about everything
For it was never meant to last
The memories still haunt me
I want to forget it all
But how can I be free free,
When I just keep on falling
There's good and bad in the past
I remember them both so well
Though I knew it wouldn't last
I never wanted to say farewell
Remember when we laughed just because?
That smile of yours lit up my life
To me, you had no flaws
So why did you pick up that knife?
Now this is the part I hate to think of
The part where the tears flow free
It's when I lost you my love
The day I lost a part of me
Clos
Truths and Lies--In and Out by betwixtthepages, literature
Literature
Truths and Lies--In and Out
I really hate to say this
(HAH! What are we, ten?)
I'm not sure that this is working
(I don't WANT to be your friend!)
Everything has gone downhill
(I blame this shit on you!)
I need to work some problems out
(I know exactly what to do)
So what have you been doing?
(Who did you sleep beside last night?)
How's your life been lately?
(How does her hair look in the light?)
I completely understand
(but can I strangle you just for fun?)
I'm happy as long as you are
(I hope you know that we are done.)
So why did you call me?
(Can't you leave me the Hell alone!?)
It was nice of you to think of me
(Should I disconnect my phone?)
O
You are my addiction.
A drug that comes free,
giving a high with no
negative side effects.
You are the addiction
I have no intentions
to ever give up.
You're a drug-
more like a medicine;
a multi-purpose cure.
No needles needed
for injection.
Not inhalation
nor consumption.
You diffuse into
my every pore;
love vapors.
Seeping into my
tightly knit skin
as though it is
completely permeable.
You surround me entirely
no matter where I go.
And you soak in,
into my bloodstream,
back to fuel my heart;
a heart belonging to you
until its last beat.
You are the addiction
I have no intentions
to ever give up.
Dark Moon
Bright Sky
Golden Hair
Sapphire Eye
Tears fall down smooth cheeks. Silver rivulets mine to keep.
A thousand words I have to mend a heart my carelessness hath rend.
Step Near. Step Away.
Why am I scared, why am I afraid? Crimson streams run down my cheeks.
Your eyes leak silver, mine leak blood.
Emotions run rampant, spiral out of control, Blame is a single edged blade that each face its user, poised to fall in self-sacrifice, Simple words become lethal daggers, unknowingly thrown.
Everything is quiet.
Destruction is ready to fall, self-inflicted wounds all.
Silence is shattered
Broken
Quivering, blame rests, dropped by
Another winter
another day
another walk
under a tunnel of trees
with you or without
I have nothing left to show
and nowhere left to go
and no more lies to tell
and love is not enough
to keep me here